how well have we earned?
how long, though we try,
have we felt each whisper
and burned through each sigh?
and how many suns set
with life still at bay
with rivers so journeyed
and journeyed away?
what of the fair soldier
not waking to dream?
still there as a trooper
but lost to the seams.
what debt that we owe him
enjoyed in sweet breath
can pleasant him forward
this life to the next?
and then, have we earned
and, oh, have we tried
to feel us each whisper
that burns through each sigh?
written for SSG Chad Arthur Caldwell, k troop 3/3 ACR. May he rest in peace.
(Stepped on an IED while assisting Iraqi Police)
*The title "Earn This" is taken from the movie "Saving Private Ryan".
[ I saw some pictures just the other day of a couple of babies and a little girl who surely would have flown to America and tortured me had they not been valiantly exploded by our brave soldiers. Thanks to your effort, no one's going to torture me but my own government. I'll probably deserve it though, or at least I assume so since I don't have to be given a trial.
FREEDOM, FUCK YEAH, GOOD JOB BOYS
"All are excellent followers. "
I bet they are.
Quick, there are Iranians on the horizon who want to take more of my freedom, you better go kill them while the government further reduces my civil liberty to ensure I am free. And you keep killing, who knew there were so many countries out there who were just about to invade us, good thing we have you huh?
I come to graymatternotes every chance I get (internet connections are sometimes flaky). Why? Because I look for every bit of connection with you that I can find. I do love you very much. You please me, woman. You take care of what is mine and that is what a woman is for a man. You take care of Festus, the house and, most of all, yourself. You are the greatest that I have to call my own. You make me trust you and that is just fine.
I do not often write when I come here. I start to but then I get sort of emotional and I stop.
Things are not bad here. Or, rather, they could be worse. I feel safe. The men around me are very well trained at protecting themselves and, to some extent, me. We look out for each other and there are extraordinary measures in effect to keep harm from us.
My job here is a complicated one. When it is all said and done, there will be over ten people who work for me just to help me accomplish my mission. They are all smart. Some are brilliant. Most are leaders. All are excellent followers. We will each lean on one another to ensure success. That is how the Army works.
I have met many Iraqis already. They are a dignified people. I have also been in contact with those that would cause harm to the citizens here. I have never seen such evil in my life. It is all a part of duty. It all adds a perspective to life. It all helps us (soldiers) to appreciate the treasure that is America as no one who has not served can. I often say that if you want to understand Freedom, ask a battle-hardened marine who has had to fight for some else’s. He knows the true value.
I think of you often.
If you love your niece, she should come to you.
Any quintessence must be tested from time to time in order to prove the metal. Love must be tested for its trueness to be known. Consider this your test. Consider this my test. Consider this a test of love as a quintessence. Will we be stronger when I return? If not, were we ever strong at all?
I breeze to you as on a summer's morning. None but the ends of time can keep this soul at bay
With Love,
Graymatter / TPS
Red-Head by the River - 2004
She crowns herself, a burning red
And eyes, they dance like rivers
As she wafts her sweet perfume
Along the meadowland and way.
And, lo. But who forgives her?
Every reed that marks her path.
And whistle – ling, they speak
Her tune and loud as she, herself
Is burning red.
Is burning red and watching,
Whispering and who shall speak
But the yard bird in tuxedo
Sloshing whiskey in his feet?
But, red, she lights herself
Upon a fire and
Singes up the lawn.
Blows a kiss
Back to her shadow
And she’s gone. . .
Still by the river does
The Day Sun, feels her
Waft upon her way.
Still by the river does
She waft upon her way.
Hollywood
Bowed-legged babies
Picking up stars
Hollywood searching
Back end of bars
Pigeon-toed sweetness
Tasting the rain
Dancing a dove,
Horse with no name
Love struck and sorry
Woeful with wine
Twisted and gloried
Laughing the line
Kissed it and found it
Life is about
Poured upon smiles
Squeezing all out
Riddles are fine for
Wisdom one speaks
Listening's where is
Truth that one keeps
So,
Pick up your baby
Press back the rain
If Hollywood’s searching,
Stars know her name.
You drunk me up
With your sweet wine
Of shining moon
And mescaline.
Come sigh.
Come sigh.
Come whisper near.
Fall from your Self
And fly.
And fly.
Let’s dance upon an angel’s tear
Embraced against
The widowed sky.
Come drunk us up
With pleasured wine
Of shining moon
And mescaline.
And if our passion,
It don’t prove,
We’ll feather down
To sip and soothe
So twist a fever
Up and riled
And twist a river clear.
And sigh.
And sigh.
And fall from Self
And come, babe,
Whisper near.
Copyright: © 2006 All Rights Reserved.
Smashing Pumpkins with Cinderella
I kidnapped Cinderella
From the parlor
At the ball
We two went
Smashing pumpkins
Drinking whiskies at the mall
We danced a little.
Played a fiddle.
Screaming toward the dawn.
And turned a twiddle
Cross the middle
Of an iced up pond
Say, baby, get your coat
I’m gonna take you
For a ride
My limo
Pimps and floats
On all the velboa inside
Cinderella . . .
Ella’s kidnapped
And she's riding high with me.
And two went
Smashing pumpkins
On a crisping autumn’s eve.
I thought about for a day and did it. Am I wrong for blocking someone just because they annoy me? I feel like the soup nazi or something.
Ode to the Red-legged Stranger
Artillery
Is planting daisies
Far beyond
Where lilacs grow
Lanyard’s might
Does still amaze me
And it’s more
Than I should know
Sing for me
My red-legged stranger
Pave the way
That is my path
They won’t know
Just what did hit them
All they know
Is red-leg’s wrath
Crease the wind
With thunder
And let fire
Dance like rain
Leave them gazed
And wondered
At the swiftness
Of the pain
Artillery
Is pushing daisies.
Over yon,
No lilacs be.
Red-leg’s might
Is still amazing
Lanyard’s taut
And I’m still free
philosophySuppose Mr. A dislikes Ms. B and kills her for no reason other than he prefers to live in a world without her. Has Mr. A done anything "wrong", "bad", or "sinful"? Why? What do words like "wrong" really mean? What I'm trying to understand is: on what basis should Mr. A refrain from killing Ms. B?
- Phil Haverstick
philosophyOne day, you wake up in hospital. In the nearby bed lies a world famous violinist who is connected to you with various tubes and machines.
To your horror, you discover that you have been kidnapped by the Music Appreciation Society. Aware of the maestro's impending death, they hooked you up to the violinist.
If you stay in the hospital bed, connected to the violinist, he will be totally cured in a few months. You are unlikely to suffer harm. No one else can save him. Should you stay connected? Or should you let him die?
What (if anything) would you think of the person who would let him die?
philosophyIs there a particular freedom that you wish others could not exercise? (limit your answer to the Bill of Rights)
And, why not?
philosophyYou are in a life boat. Ten miles of rough sea are between you and land. There are twelve of you in the life boat. The life boat can only transport ten people or it will ride too low and begin to take on water. There are nine healthy men aboard. One sick man. One woman. And one child.
Even if the sea were calm, you calculate it would still be nearly impossible to row to shore.
The island is not charted. You know it may be months before you are found; that is, if you even make it to the island. There will be a lot of work on the island to ensure survival.
Question:
What can you do to ensure that you get to safety? Is your decision moral? Is it immoral? Why? Does it matter?
philosophyIf you had to choose, which constitutional right would you keep? You can only choose one. which one would you choose? why? Could you secure more rights with the one that you have chosen? how?
philosophyIs there such thing as neutrality? Or is it that when one is "neutral", he defacto chooses to side with whoever the winner might be?
non PC enema
Mindsay quirk number 9
Always Trust Your Instincts