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graymatter
The (Self-Proclaimed) Mindsay Poets' Authority and General Literary Advisor.
 
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*Earn This

 

how well have we earned?

how long, though we try,

have we felt each whisper

and burned through each sigh?

and how many suns set

with life still at bay

with rivers so journeyed

and journeyed away?

what of the fair soldier

not waking to dream?

still there as a trooper

but lost to the seams.

what debt that we owe him

enjoyed in sweet breath

can pleasant him forward

this life to the next?

and then, have we earned

and, oh, have we tried

to feel us each whisper

that burns through each sigh?

 

--graymatter  

 

written for SSG Chad Arthur Caldwell,  k troop 3/3 ACR.  May he rest in peace.

 

(Stepped on an IED while assisting Iraqi Police)

 

*The title "Earn This" is taken from the movie "Saving Private Ryan".

 
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This is a respnse to my last entry. interesting.
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redwoodpecker on May 15, 2008 at 10:51 PM
Re: Breeze - By Graymatter (Dobie)
Yeah, good thing the marines came along or noone would know what freedom was.  Thank you for stopping those Iraqis from invading and enslaving us, as I know they were just about to do when we stepped in.  Had the boats and camels all ready and everything.

I saw some pictures just the other day of a couple of babies and a little girl who surely would have flown to America and tortured me had they not been valiantly exploded by our brave soldiers.  Thanks to your effort, no one's going to torture me but my own government.  I'll probably deserve it though, or at least I assume so since I don't have to be given a trial.

FREEDOM, FUCK YEAH, GOOD JOB BOYS

"All are excellent followers. "

I bet they are.

Quick, there are Iranians on the horizon who want to take more of my freedom, you better go kill them while the government further reduces my civil liberty to ensure I am free.  And you keep killing, who knew there were so many countries out there who were just about to invade us, good thing we have you huh?
 
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Breeze - By Graymatter (Dobie)
 

I come to graymatternotes  every chance I get (internet connections are sometimes flaky).  Why?  Because I look for every bit of connection with you that I can find.  I do love you very much.  You please me, woman.  You take care of what is mine and that is what a woman is for a man.  You take care of Festus, the house and, most of all, yourself.  You are the greatest that I have to call my own.  You make me trust you and that is just fine.

 

I do not often write when I come here.  I start to but then I get sort of emotional and I stop.

 

Things are not bad here.  Or, rather, they could be worse.  I feel safe.  The men around me are very well trained at protecting themselves and, to some extent, me.  We look out for each other and there are extraordinary measures in effect to keep harm from us. 

 

My job here is a complicated one.  When it is all said and done, there will be over ten people who work for me just to help me accomplish my mission.  They are all smart.  Some are brilliant.  Most are leaders.  All are excellent followers.  We will each lean on one another to ensure success.  That is how the Army works.

 

I have met many Iraqis already.  They are a dignified people.  I have also been in contact with those that would cause harm to the citizens here. I have never seen such evil in my life.  It is all a part of duty.  It all adds a perspective to life.  It all helps us (soldiers) to appreciate the treasure that is America as no one who has not served can.  I often say that if you want to understand Freedom, ask a battle-hardened marine who has had to fight for some else’s.  He knows the true value.

 

I think of you often.

 

If you love your niece, she should come to you.

 

Any quintessence must be tested from time to time in order to prove the metal.  Love must be tested for its trueness to be known.  Consider this your test.  Consider this my test.  Consider this a test of love as a quintessence.  Will we be stronger when I return?  If not, were we ever strong at all?

 

I breeze to you as on a summer's morning.  None but the ends of time can keep this soul at bay

 

With Love,

 

Graymatter / TPS

 
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Red-Head by the River - Dobie

Red-Head by the River - 2004

 

She crowns herself, a burning red

And eyes, they dance like rivers

As she wafts her sweet perfume

Along the meadowland and way.

 

And, lo. But who forgives her?

Every reed that marks her path.

And whistle – ling, they speak

Her tune and loud as she, herself

 

Is burning red.

 

Is burning red and watching,

Whispering and who shall speak

But the yard bird in tuxedo

Sloshing whiskey in his feet?

 

But, red, she lights herself

Upon a fire and

Singes up the lawn.

 

Blows a kiss

Back to her shadow

      And she’s gone. . .

 

Still by the river does

The Day Sun, feels her

Waft upon her way.

 

Still by the river does

She waft upon her way.

 
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Hollywood - Graymatter
Tags: drugs sex

Hollywood

 

Bowed-legged babies

Picking up stars

Hollywood searching

Back end of bars

 

Pigeon-toed sweetness

Tasting the rain

Dancing a dove,

Horse with no name

 

Love struck and sorry

Woeful with wine

Twisted and gloried

Laughing the line

 

Kissed it and found it

Life is about

Poured upon smiles

Squeezing all out

 

Riddles are fine for

Wisdom one speaks

Listening's where is

Truth that one keeps

 

So,


Pick up your baby

Press back the rain

If Hollywood’s searching,

Stars know her name.

 
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Graymatter's Notes
You will see glimpses of me at graymatternotes.  I may be phasing out of graymatter for a time.
 
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Whisper Drunk Love Near and Swoon

You drunk me up

With your sweet wine

Of shining moon

And mescaline.

 

Come sigh.

Come sigh.

Come whisper near.

 

Fall from your Self

And fly.

And fly.

 

Let’s dance upon an angel’s tear

Embraced against

The widowed sky.

 

Come drunk us up

With pleasured wine

Of shining moon

And mescaline.

 

And if our passion,

It don’t prove,

We’ll feather down

To sip and soothe

 

So twist a fever

Up and riled

And twist a river clear.

 

And sigh.

And sigh.

And fall from Self

 

And come, babe,

Whisper near.

 

 Copyright: © 2006 All Rights Reserved.

 
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Smashing Pumpkins with Cinderella - Dobie

Smashing Pumpkins with Cinderella


I kidnapped Cinderella

From the parlor

At the ball

 

We two went

Smashing pumpkins

Drinking whiskies at the mall

 

We danced a little.

Played a fiddle.

Screaming toward the dawn.

 

And turned a twiddle

Cross the middle

Of an iced up pond

 

Say, baby, get your coat

I’m gonna take you

For a ride

 

My limo

Pimps and floats

On all the velboa inside

 

      Cinderella . . . 

Ella’s kidnapped

 And she's riding high with me.

 

And two went

Smashing pumpkins

 On a crisping autumn’s eve.

 
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Blocked

I thought about for a day and did it. Am I wrong for blocking someone just because they annoy me?  I feel like the soup nazi or something.

 
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Ode to the Red-legged Stranger - dobie

Ode to the Red-legged Stranger

 

Artillery

Is planting daisies

Far beyond

Where lilacs grow

 

Lanyard’s might

Does still amaze me

And it’s more

Than I should know

 

Sing for me

My red-legged stranger

Pave the way

That is my path

 

They won’t know

Just what did hit them

All they know

Is red-leg’s wrath

 

Crease the wind

With thunder

And let fire

Dance like rain

 

Leave them gazed

And wondered

At the swiftness

Of the pain

 

Artillery

Is pushing daisies.

  Over yon, 

 No lilacs be.

 

Red-leg’s might

Is still amazing

Lanyard’s taut

And I’m still free

 
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Question #19
Tags: philosophy

Suppose Mr. A dislikes Ms. B and kills her for no reason other than he prefers to live in a world without her. Has Mr. A done anything "wrong", "bad", or "sinful"? Why? What do words like "wrong" really mean? What I'm trying to understand is: on what basis should Mr. A refrain from killing Ms. B?

 

- Phil Haverstick

 
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Question #18
Tags: philosophy

One day, you wake up in hospital. In the nearby bed lies a world famous violinist who is connected to you with various tubes and machines.

 

To your horror, you discover that you have been kidnapped by the Music Appreciation Society. Aware of the maestro's impending death, they hooked you up to the violinist.

 

If you stay in the hospital bed, connected to the violinist, he will be totally cured in a few months. You are unlikely to suffer harm. No one else can save him. Should you stay connected? Or should you let him die?

 

What (if anything) would you think of the person who would let him die? 

 
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Question #17
If you have a freedom that you cherish and someone speaks out against it, do you become more concerned with the freedom that you hold dear or more concerned with someone else's freedom to speak against it? Think about it.
 
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Question #16
Tags: philosophy

Is there a particular freedom that you wish others could not exercise? (limit your answer to the Bill of Rights)

And, why not?

 
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Question #15
Tags: philosophy

You are in a life boat.  Ten miles of rough sea are between you and land.  There are twelve of you in the life boat.  The life boat can only transport ten people or it will ride too low and begin to take on water.  There are nine healthy men aboard.  One sick man.  One woman.  And one child.

 

Even if the sea were calm, you calculate it would still be nearly impossible to row to shore.

 

The island is not charted.  You know it may be months before you are found; that is, if you even make it to the island.  There will be a lot of work on the island to ensure survival.

 

Question:

 

What can you do to ensure that you get to safety?  Is your decision moral?  Is it immoral?  Why? Does it matter?

 
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Question #14
Tags: philosophy

If you had to choose, which constitutional right would you keep?  You can only choose one.  which one would you choose? why?  Could you secure more rights with the one that you have chosen?  how?

 

 
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Question #13
Tags: philosophy

Is there such thing as neutrality? Or is it that when one is "neutral", he defacto chooses to side with whoever the winner might be?

 
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Question #12
Tags: philosophy
Is it possible to believe in nothing?
 
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